when things get to their worst, they can ONLY get better.

God takes, and God gives.

we do not understand His ways,

all we can do is endure,

knowing that it is part of His purpose for us.

God gives the most suffering to those

who He needs to be strong enough to carry out his work.

we know nothing of suffering,

only that it makes us stronger.

we cant hide,

becus thats avoiding life's lesson.

maybe it does have the power to destroy us,

but its then that it can only get better.

we can only "endure, knowing its part of a gr8er plan".

our troubles will bring painful storms,

the lessons will bring new life to us.

happiness is always just around the corner from darkness.

Commonwealth Essay Competition

2004 first prize winner Class B

Nicola Lazenby

South Africa

superr sunday.

whee im on the comp so frequently recently liaos.

oorh before i forgot

anyone wan to buy sajc funfair tix?

19th february.

yeahs so laz night yihui told me a gr8 new. news i mean.

that im the follow upper of rachel's sister, reena.

okies. gulps* challenge. but im gAmE. cheerios.

thens i wanted to go mug de larhs.

cux i was feeling quite awake

but opening a book is equivalent to eatin` ten sleepin` pills larh.

so copied down the tingxie words and highlighted some stuff and did QT

and *ssnorezz*

kopiko no effect one.

then morns woke up at nine, crawled out of bed at ten.

*big grinns* its sunday afterr all.

washed upp and wen play ddr.

siao kia larhs i know.

the ddr carpet vehh disappointing larhs. keep moving then scrunch forwardd. *pouts. then i carn play properly.

wadeverr larhs.

read all the mags and ate lok mai kai [izit liddat "spell"?]]

gulped pepsi and finally did the tuition homewerk which is due 4.30pm ltr on. haha.

heh did some geog too.

then yeap, on the comp agns.

ehh vehh sad, misplaced lost misplaced lost the creative newspaper promo thg.

pppppfffftttt.

wdv, im still gettin` the muvo thg.

ha. but like so lag.

ta got it 2months ago at such a cheap price larhs.

oorh wells.

((:*

fun fun fun

whee.

today turned out reeli rawkin`.

this morn woke up at nine, intending to catch up on homework and muggin` n stuff cux recently i reeli thynk all tchers switched to greek.

thenns u saw larh, previous entry,

cux yihui asked me go for pm marhs. at twelve.

then the timing so weirds so decided to not study and blogged.

was feelin` nervous and jumpy anyways.

then ate breakfast which digested 20mins ltr

and changedd.

contacts vehh irritating lorhhs.

got crack i thynk.

vehh blurr and vehh unciomfortable.

so wore spects.

went to meet qiao at tpy where she doing flag day.

thens went somerset togets on train for pm.

ended up have to help some nedoners get canned drinks cux everyone forgotten about makin` shakers.

so went to cold storage

finally located the dumb unchilled canned drinks and choc bar to energise

queued behind this lady.

ultimate wrong choice.

she bought half a yr worth of grocery??

it sums up to 484 bucks okie.

im NOT exegerratin` at all.

finally we paid and rushed to nexes and only caught half the pm.

enuff oso larhhs cux qiao sickk and she like cmi liaos.

prayedd for her healin` and for visitors etc

thens went to make the shakers aft force drinkin` down the canned drinks

yihui threw my can away by accident ><"

thens we went to take a leak.

i damn kuku larhs.

dono how get out of the cubicle keep getting stuck.

dens rushed to meet the visitors.

ying was the only punctual one.

ta was late

pq n ser were ltr

so at first we got reeli bad seats one.

but end up dono who gave us the seats so we moved here and there before finally settlin` down in comfy seats.

the startin` was all instrumental peices

that being musically illiterate, wasnt reeli excited.

but the drummers vehh kool. got highh hehs.

ta like siao diao during cannon in d or smth.

then praise started

was high but quite weird cux serene n jasm were staring across me

sermon etc

i was vehh vehh thankful

their responses are either neutral or positive.

no negative ones.

phew.~~~

i damn nervous larhs ><>

supposed their reactions matters loads to me.

i mean i care for them arhs .

thenns me ying jassmean puqin serene took train with qiao to j8.

she went for organ we went mini shopping.

ser bought necklace and i finally got the DDR CARPET!

although its quite thin n kinda hard and arcade more feel but can exercise at home liaos!

yeayyy~

then i rushed took neo with pq

didnt realise i got individual one with her liaos.

on christmas.

arhh so dumbb.

anyways we ate at foodcourt.

salmon rawkkks.

and they went muhh house.

we playedd ddr lorhs and ta happily updated her blog with the comp.

aft sweat, screams and loads or dancin`

they went home liaos.

sent them off and came up wanted to play ddr again

ma came baq so went downstairs again to replenish tidbits and magazines and toiletries. why not larhs.

its free. at least not off muhh pocket money.

haha im greedy.

lalala.

rawkin` dayyyy. cheerios.

qiao take care worhs. don get sicker.

will be healed de ^^

thanks for the mentos and stuff

ta, ying, ser, pq: hope today was fun for you guys ^^ mabbe there wud be second visits.

all at yhope: thanks for the hospility.

and encoragement. u guys rawkk.

ciaooooss.

nervouuss;

doing quizzes koped from qiaos blog

cux i dono wad else to do.

i mean i got a 1500 word essay to do

but i need to go out soon.

timing so weirdss.

Which toe are you?

wahaha yeapp. caregiverr. how nice.

i shall be nice. wahaha.

dowan paste the other results. not aaccurate. wahaha.

blehhs.

i oways get nervous when i have visitors.

to yhope.

hopefully thgs will go well.

*paces ard.

creative promo~

whee im damn excited.

creative having promo from 28th jan to 14th feb

the mp3 prices go down like 60 bucks.

hehs forget the ipod shuffle liaos larhs =X

get angpau money then dash to the warehouse and get

*cheers and hops ardd.

thot i vehh long nehh update end up 3 days only.

[26th]

at first thot today need act guai so early in the morn

end up maths relief tcher came

whole class cheered.

wahaha.

same thg lorhs

ever hungry durin` lessons.

efl was a little less borin` with patch adams and stuff.

wade into the sea of humanity.

ha i don mind.

then was busy observin` person too.

and shanwei is the nkf 2005 ambassador.

okie why him but nvm

better than the rest that came larhs.

yeayy.

sho went caregrp with zhiyan and huiying.

was vehh forgetful and dumbb. bleh.

noone got the joke from publicity. sobbs.

cg was fun.

so true. we carn live without commitments.

[27] ehhs vehh tiring.

lessons draining.

thenn aft that can only grabbed some food and then got winitsuksa meeting and briefin` they comin on 14th feb valentines day. whee~

thenn got footdrill.

left early cux gort tuition.

the weather was killin` larhs.

scorchin`.

tuition was [i carn catch anythg]

brain dead.

was quite moody.

was worried.

was questioning.

how long coommitments last?

how deep they reeli are.

today]]

happburfday weiming!

haha morns went to deliver chocs to january babies with ahmak.

lessons was short.

thens sku ended early marhs so went to see the sec ones and help the kayakin` pple get some food.

guides was okie lorhs.

band like so irritatin`.

we use carpark they needed the space and being nice we went to the temp block.

then we use canteen they come n play noise music.

carn hear commands. moved to paradesq agns.

they came shortly and wanted that area agn for sound recordin`.

it rained.

*narrows eyes and shruggs

so we got dismissed early.

went to j8 with joanne and meet her chruch fren there.

ate yakunn.

walked ard.

jo bought the 56 cd. haha waste money =p

anyone sellin` the jay lyrics book??

i dowan buy the whole cd marhs. hehs.

hmmm.

during english class i was reeli pissed with superr unnecessary comments.

i reeli wonder how pple can thynk so highly of themselves and talk like as if they gort no arse stuck to their butt like everyone else.

just look at how we try to figure thgs out. sometimes i reeli thynk we are so low.

bahh nehh mind.

creativeeeeeeee~

and keep seeing him ard.

lols. weirdds.

eventful dayy. wahah.

im sian.

ha. today is eventful.

but im finally feeling tired of sku.

the past few weeks jiu fly past jiu recess then wheeee sku end lorhs.

mabbe cux today chem n maths togetherr

then like so drainin`.

btw my stomach carn be filled lehs

either theres reeli a lot of tapeworms inside or im having rapid growth spurt.

i wud seriously prefer the latter.

morns woke up late marhs 20mins overslept so just ate a cookie n 1/4 cup of milo.

thens broinlaw drove me to sku

did the usual tourin` the blog and forcin` qiao to mugg.

before flag raisin`, me n ain ran to get pe tshirt and nametag.

thank God made it in time larhs and that our door is spoilt.

pe quite hiong lehhs.

cux i havin` cramps marhs thenn pain thru`out.

aft that jiu hao liao.

wonderrs of a workout.

thenns lit. vehh fun~

got some free expression thingy.

yingying tio sabo.

then she blurblur anyhow walkk. lols.

the poem was quite kool toos.

bio was okie.

repeat lesson for the obs pple and lookin` at magnified cells slides.

laz yr see before liaos.

was disgusted.

then recess!

grabbed mak's famous amos cookie given by sherhan n company.

thenns ate hotdog bread or smth.

rinnnggg~

chem. squeaked thru it.

ions and electronic configuration n stuff.

maths.

vehh sianns.

kena scolded by cher cux we were self entertainin` during lesson and laughin` at i forgot wadd.

thenns after lesson liao then i vehh happy marhs cux vehh hard to sit thru chem n maths lorhs n i start stranglin` ching.

then he tell us go outside n we had a little talk.

u got it larhs.

those talks.

shrugs* need act guai liao. siann diao.

hmm lossin` motivation to study.

hope the motivation cann come back.

fast.

and qiao said smth vehh true.

tchers r forgetful

be guai for a while they will forget wad u do des.

haha. oorh wells.

hmm went for lunch @ canteen cux 3/5 hafen dismiss.

ate noodles.

thot it was soggy.

thenns ying n ser came out i ate rice again.

hehs 2 lunch. ((:*

^((00))^

so we went kfc to mug.

loads of stops before that.

went popular finall got the sei green pen i intro qiao to =p

and look at jay cd.

dono shud buy nort marhs.

cux vehh worth money.

went spects shop

ta got more pairs of contacts and ying tried on some spects.

comicsconnection.

look at manyue posters. ^^

thenns went to mugg.

then i was cravin` for food again.

had bun n weed potato.

we all cravin` for yakun.

went j8 for dearrr yakun toast.

took neo.

went popular agns.

went home.

hmm. seems like loads pple cry during adam khoo too.

how come hr get paid to make pple feel bad i wonderr.

psycho psycho.

b a h h .

suibians.

got to go look for periodic table to do the chem wrksht.

intelligently left chem txtbk @ skuu.

ciaos.

shepherdin`

bwahahaha.

kinda typical skuu day lorhs.

vehh vehh sian diao during maths.

some jerk left his pretz under muhh table n messed up muhh place larhhs.

b a h h.

i kindly went and return him his pretz includin` all the broken pcs on the floor.

carried the chem books up afterr skuu.

changed tcherr temporarily. =(

thenns rushed to shepherdin` aft counting the names on the board.

twenty five new guides.

nort bad barhhs. ^^

yeahhs shepherdin` today was heavyy.

loads of info. but vehh interestin` too.

zhiyan and sarah were there too.

having their follow-upin`.

i wann to take this challenge.

to serve God more.

and to help and takecare of more pple.

((:*

hmm. anyway qiao's entry made me thynk.

why must we keep complicatin` simple thgs.

if we were simple,

things will be simple.

and pple wud stop complainin` lurv hurts.

lurv didnt hurt you.

disagreement did.

inability to accept each other did.

it wasnt anyones fault.

my minds shuttin` off. carn thynk liao.

logarithms is killin` muhh brain cells.

if i have some in the first place.

angel gimme banana choco! ((:*

today vehh blessed.

thanks qiao n ber for the stickers,

qiao for the contacts solution and chocobarr

cheers.

new layout.

hehs. im so guai.

i changed layout.

cux anqi requested me to.

like real

hehs kiddin` larhs.

i change cux i kinda sick of the old one liaos.

and now all layouts gort coords.

kinda obsessed with simple layouts.

hehs and qiao is now driving me to bed.

and i somehow got a kor.

weirds.

heh tml gort skuu and i carn do chem.

blehh.

to the sec 4s, happy being brainwashed by khoo.

tata.

17-22

wahaha don miss me that much larhs.
im updatin`.
finally.
lols. was about to update yesternight then kena scolded by ma till quite jialats then siann diaos.
and wads same bout this n the previous entry is that
my nose is still stuffed with mucus. blehh.

17th* kinda still sickk larhs. but went to skuu anyway. then kinda recoverr liaos. mug in muhh class with ber n qiao aft sku. not much impression wad happened lehs. hehs. sstm larhs. [sstm = severe short term memory]]

18th*happy burfday jay! lols. much better liaos. thynk wad mrs tan said was meaningful. the "im blind, please help me" and "its a beautiful day but i carn see it"
it made me thynk.
but i never took muhh sight for granted.
im fortunate enuff to be living actually. hmm.
went shopping for makmak pressie.
nort muchh gains.
was irritable cux kinda stressed out by everythg.
sorry tata n ying lehhs.

19th* happy burfday sherilyn!
we gort her a nice pynk pure milk bag. i wud happily steal it home.
went for caregrp with qiao.
intelligently took the wrong bus.
haha then overshot the place then we have to run across the road n climb up the slope and cross loads of blocks.
caregroup was superr fun larhs.
played the water n freeze game.
was quite safe till huiying decided to tackle me. haha.
vehh funn ((:*
but will be funner if i don need the toilet cux muhh bladder is burstin`.

20th* hehs muhh angel from caregrp gort me letter in straw n chocs!
and i found the bio book which i left in 37`05 that i thot was in 43`05. haha. wonderrs.
muhh class changed seatin` arrangement. now like orchestra. quite sei. but thynk the behind pple caren see. nort vehh sure. im sittin` next to the door now lorhs.
realised skus been flyin` past. its nort draggin` like last yr.
miss 23`04 loads. but oorh wells. adaptin`.
went for tuiton. was like early. pj was shocked. haha.
he wann dig jassmean's eyes out. ((:*

21st* happy hari raya haji to all ((:
happy burfday weixin!
ehh we went shoppin` for mak pressie. surprisingly got the gifts in the 1st hour. hehs ((: jass don let us go her house. hmph.
me n ying went self entertain then we went played this lame puzzle game at some mp3 little stall that if u win can get camera. but its reeli frikin` hard lorhs. like we carn solve at all. and we don even have 5 bucks to pay them so we can actually try the game and get the prize so we just play without the prize lorhs.
carn win de lehs. vehh hard.
then me n renying went j8. was damn high.
she high cux jay album
we high cux the got manyue pictorial book.
then we jiu siao diao. keep ahh-in`
and took the miserable 2 bucks we left for icecream @ macs.
vehh xingfu~~ haha.

22* today. hAppy buRfdayy MAK! hope today fun for youu worhhs ((:*
ehh actually last night quite jialat.
muhh ma scold and don allow me go out today. but in the end can larhs.
hope i don get grounded.
they carn reeli ground me anyway.
if they ground me from sku i will thank them. hmm.
haha yeay cixin is back.
we wan go art lesson! haha.
yeahhs so morns i went anyway and got muhh pictorial book ((:*
its kinda nort worthy of the money but superr nice all the same. woots.
met qiao n fab. haha.
muhh mp3 fund decrease again. haha.
yeahs we met makmak @ j8.
thens wanted to go pasirris. realised shes in jeans cux somehow noone told her we gg beach.
so went to her house to change.
realised no time to go beach liaos.
so we just lie there n chat and ordered pizzehut n kfc ((:*
n listen to ying's jay album.
nostlagic.
hehs. time flies when u crap.
we forced her to wear the clothes we bought.
can emphasis her fiigure nehhs. lols.
hmm thenns we ate like babarians. haha.
on the floor marhhs.
vehh fun thoughs. laughin` at everythg. like i scatter the popcorn chicken on the pizze box then ta n ying reach forward to get and they like "like chicken lo! u pour the feed then they will rush forward" then i wasnt amused. haha.
blehh =p
vehh funn.
thens jojo came.
ying n ta went buy cake and lost their way ><
so kinda late.
but the cake was yummy.
i ate like a lot of pizza n stuff but still nort full. haha.
hmm then me n mak rush off to service aft she finally found her wallet.
mak wear skirt nehhs.
we ran across and hail cab.
managed to make it there on time. miracle.
((: the service was inspirin`.
pastor jeff was superr funny. felt so blessed.
thenns walked to cinne n took neo with makmak thenn went home liao.
muhh parents till now still nort home.
hmm.

hope all the kuays will go the emotions service next week.
the decor vehh kool. hehs.
next week is positive emotions worhs.

yeah. happy burday mak!
((:* so happy so happy. lol.

sickin`

im still sick.
the recovery process is soooo slow.
im drinkin` herbal tea, honey, medicine n herbal tea.
not much effect.
nose stuffed with mucus. eeeeks.
hope can go skuu tml n make it thru.
tml all core subjects. drainin`.
blehhs.
yesterday cca open hoouse quite okay lorhs.
loads attitude pple
loads enthu pple.
balanced out i suppose.
keep eatin` fruitplus. lols.
then went home n did hw.
today do hw agains and went tuition.
ooh dinner time.
ciaos~

im sickkk.

im finally updatin`
finally found time to update. cux im sick.
yesh. im germfilled with an oversized headd and throat i ratherr it wasnt thereee.
vehh weak larhs.
this 2 weeks damn busy runnin` all overr the place w/0 lunch jiu sick le.
haha god wants me to rest.
ehh wad happened this week.

[monday]] skuu.
ehh chem rep. with weiching.
like all the guides oso chem reps lehhs. funny.
social stuudies combine with 3/1 ((:*
ehh english in band one.
i ratherr nort.
ms heng hass reeeeeeeeli high expectations.
i thot english was supposed to be kinda relaxin` lehs. *shrugs
maths vehh dryyy. vehh bored.
thenns afterr skuu carnn rmb if got eat norts.
thenns went to do the guides thinking day banner.
till ard 5 arhs.
me n qiao went to mugg.
need to confiscate her mp3 and hp so she can mug manns. lols.
thenns sku close liao lorhs. went macs with qiao to makann.
fries n mcflurry.
took bus. sis picked me up on the way and went to aunts house for cousins bd.
reached home @ 10 plus. dead.

[tuesdayy]] pe. took height n weight.
grew like 0.5cm?
i shall believe that the stupid rulerr is wrong.
andd 3-4kg ((:*
oorhs lit oso gort banding.
i lurv lit class.
mrs joanne lee aka mdm heah.
and loads 2/3erss ((:
ying2, jo, ser, weilun, weeyang, jufri, ronald, darren, joel, sankari, vanessa, arathi, geetha.
and our dearr rep, moosy masturahhh ((:*
bio. ms ho quite funn. bios kinda scary.
pro carry a yoke n a tick. lalala.
after skuu loiterr in skuu with berber. did chem
andd wnt for shepherdin`.
ate mcflurry and fries. hehs.
rched home @ 8.

[wednesdayy]] geog. mr ismail rawks. his teachin` vehh good ((:*
ehhs went caregrp with qiao pam n xuan.
i kena the game larhs. then drank some chocolate ketchup thg pam made.
wanted to help yihui drink oso cux i thot it taste nicee actually.
then qiao snatch n drink cux she know i weak stomach larhs. hehs thankks.
guides oways play this thg so i drink till not scared liao. lols.
after that cheong to nyp there meet ying n ta and went for tuition.
was late. for the 30th time or smth larhs.
did logarithms. i don like. blehh.
thenns went home.
pj offered to send me home but so weird so i took bus home lorhs.
rched home at 11 plus.

[thursdayy]] started to have sorethroat.
still can screamm. haha.
aft that did banner agains.
only me n ber
then aft qiaos physics mastery which went quite wells she came to help to ((:*
thenn had tuition agains.
5-7. 8 plus then rch home.

todayy.
morns wake up head feels heavyy.
but today got geong n ss marhs then thynk shudnt miss so went to skuu anyways.
survived eng ss n geong abit burblur-ly.
refused to sit thru maths again so called sis to pick me up during recess.
thanks ching n kuays for pei-in` me worhhs.
thynk the office pple sian of seein` my face liaos.
hehs. so went clinic.
got medicine lorhs.
went to papa shop.
ate nice food.
potato n cabbage m porridge.
took vehh long to eat lols.
thenns took evenn longer to take the medicine.
for those that dono me, i carn take tablets.
i carn swalllow. lols.
so take the medicine lorhs. so disgustin`.
ate fruittella and slept.
for 5 hr or smth.
while they doing footdrill. =X

yeahs. dono tml shud go for cca ophen house nort lehhs.
don feel like takin` medicine there n drinkk. n i drink liao will konk out.

oorhs qiao just told me that sg and gang went sec 1 cf to dance.
oorhs. im so not affectedd. yearh.

i wann go campfire~!
blahhs.

typical saturday

today is quite a typical saturday barhhs.
morns wakie quite early. nine.
went out and took train. gona meet qiao @ somerset mrt.
the train was bloody crowded.
then i vehh uncomfortable larhs. duhh.
i finally found a space to squeeze in liaos at the corner
gort this charbor in front of me
shes a little weird larhs like keep hittin` her head with her hand liddat and keep smoothin` and tounchin` her hairr
she swikee herr hairr into muhh face larhs.
grrr. at orchard then qiao called me from another cabin.
realise we on the same train all along but its to crowded to see
sho walked to centrepoint macs
slacked the first 1.5h away
eatin` hotcakes meal and tryin` to get 500 pts cux i got new ezlink card
thenns vehh compelx larhs i must call and cancel the old acct or smth. grr
heck larhs. qiao was as usual, forcefeedin` wigglin` herr fork in front of muhh mouth and stuffin`.
and huixin mdm came to join us and wanted to go shoppin` when we finally startin` to study. lols.
so three of us study larhs. they helped me do the irritatin` Q7a
hehs `tata i know how do liaos. ((:*

thens got this foreignerr guy from USA tokin` to us and ask wad grade we from cux the maths thingy that huixin is doin` is tough n stuff
but he slang so strong but huixin can understand lehhs.
me n qiao like huhhh?!. typical singaporeans. blehhs.

sho we went heeren.
and huixin bought a quicksilverr nice surfboard shaped pencilcase.
the one that i say i will get for muhh boifren is i have one. lols.
vehh nice and quite cheap toos.
they boh encouraged me to get the kool wallet that i like loads lehh.
at the wallet shopp. miniature wallet. but impractical.
i still considerin`. don thynk gettin` cux the wallet defeats the purpose of a wallet. ><

hmm then when qiao finally undrown herself from the toilet bowl we wents cinne
thens she went loo again. lols.
huixin and me went help her fren choose socks.
ehh then loiterr ardd thenns hx went off liaos.

me n qiao went for service
cux of her stomachache carnn go pm.
today service was woah.
t e a r s everywhr.
i dint cry thoughs. wasnt in the mood.
was kinda sick of muhh contacts blurrin` up.
thanks qiao for putin the eyedrops. ^^
hmm. i really wana break the bondages.
wana get rid of the unhappy past, of ugly experiences.
of muhh bad habits so i can be free. that feelin` is so gr8.

anyways immediately aft the service me n qiao disappearr liaos.
cux she need go for organ lesson marhs.
and the cryin` scene aint vehh pleasant. scaryy.
i was like hidin` behind herr.
sho we wents took bus to j8 wanted to get yakun but Q too long and she runnin` late for her lessons
and we went grab bread @ breadtok and just nice 410 came
board it alighted at thomson plaza and carn find loo
so she just go lesson liddat
i went to the ladies and went loiterin` awayy
wasted money by buyin` a file n a puncherr.
andds qiao bought file, puncher n kool pens that jessie havee.
thenns we walkk ar somemore aft she finally visited the washroom
[notice todays entry got loads of synonyms of toilet?]
got this christian shopp playin the nice songgg.
vehh touchin`. today sermon got the one with "long to hide in the shadows of His wings"
rawkin`.

so we went home. ((:*

end.

ooh joanne, happy burfdayyy ((:*

joannes burfday celeb

wahaha today so eventful n emotionful.
ehh this morn sat muhh bro pynk car go skuu.
oorhs. today is reflection day
there isnt skuu i just went for guides.
ehh i reached there saw sarah, jiafang mdm and ber
thens me and ber went put contacts
time shortened loads liao larhs. lols.
i vehh sian diao
someones old padlock on muhh locker and i dono who it belonged to larhs
and i need the lockerr on monday
cux i gona bring all muhh books there.
cux i apparently didnt know wads monday timetable cux they pass ard vehh disorganisely and i wasnt intelligent enuff to check.
holiday mood ^^
ehhs thenn we went and qiao mdm came le larhs.
went drew some displayboards
jillian belicia evonne mdms oso there larhs. hehhehs.
ber was self entertain` and tied muhh hair 2 ponytails while i suck lollipop
then qiao was havin` a whale of a time videoin` and takin` picts. grr. spas.
slacked ard and tied a table top
vehh unsucessfully. me n ber got co-ordination probs.
thenns loiter someone and they tied diagonal lashin`
i vehh depressed. cux i still dono how tie. haha.
shall learn againns and againns.
thenns me ber qiao took 265 to amk mrt there and i went to meet the kuayss.
the 2 of them went get joanne's pressie.
jass was late but earlierr than me. hmph.
thenn got cute guy doin` flagday.
RJC. we donated larhs. becux its a good clause marhs
helpin` the tsunami victims. donated twice. different pple.
went in to pizzahut.
and began plan.
joanne was tricked. fun!!~
cux we made renying carry the bag we gona give ah-jo for her bd marhs.
and put crapp inside
[condoms (the source of this product is stictly confidential) lols. paper fish and paper bomb. "dirty" socks. painted dirty by makk]] and the other pressies larhhs. winnie the pooh bearr and colourpens.
i tio tricked muhhself lorhs.
cux they nehh tell me the sock is bluff one. i dono any of the thg then i scare diao muhhself. not fun one. *wwhines.
then we hadd food ^^ and icecream
i was vehh hungry n greedy larhs. lols.
pizza soup drumlet [only one =p] and icecream
satisfyin` enuff larhs
we went out and donated agains cux they reeli beggin` pple.
and one of them were like "awww. u r such sweet girls!!" -.-'
thens we went popularr and went j8 to take neos.
the neos today turn out damn kool.
ber n qiao there too gave jo her pressie
and force 15 frenchfries down herr.
thens aft the neotakin`, ta n xin need rush home le
tata got some grand dinner thingy and xin ng go buy her phonee
ber went home with jo and mak went cut hair with ying
ying cut fringe lehhs. wonderr how she looks like
then me n qiao went bugis lorhhs.
ccux muhh sisterr wan me get her the diary that i have
wonderrs wada she doin` with it.
sho we wents walkin` ard lookin` for wallets n bagg
got sei bag but like $159 or smth.
mr nice aint at bugis today toos. lols.
and being the foodlurvin` pple
i decided to go kfc ((:*
ate the cheapp promo chicken fillet thg.
was okie. qiao was forcefeedin` me.
largecoke n mediumfries. shes biantai ^^
and bein` suchh a nice sister, got food for her sis. -.-
lols on the train she showed me herr hp games. spasticc but damn entertainin`.
thenns jiu went home le lorhs.
joanne burfday is tomorrow, not today.
haha happybirthday dearrr joanne!! ((:*

first day at skuu.

today is first day of skuu larhs but still vehh slackish.
mr ismail wasnt in class the whole day anyways gort sec one orientationn.
so morns went skuu then see wilson, yongyuan and another guy [still dono his name but he draw wings vehh nice]]
then i errr... and went to find qiao.
and shes writin` in the a*guides log book lorhs. then found mak.
thenns we went find darren pass him his simple plan cd with me since 23rd nov or smth.
hehs. then renying cixin mak n me went walkin` ard meet loads of pple.
seniors oso ^^ lols
kinda funn.
then went hall for assembly.
went class n decide class commitee and stuff.
chairman is khairul then vchair jiaqian then secretary wilson. [he can draww vehh nice, impresive]]
etc. our classtee is aquablue.
rawkin` rawkin`. sho AA, i like. ((:*
thenn 3/5 i luminous orange? and 3/1 lime green or smth.
AA batch of sec threes ((:
then finally finish the a*guides tee design le
khai [mdm] and the guides i asked liked it so its safe barhs
hope it turn out nicer than the cf tee lorhs
don like the cf tee personally.

yeahs keep tourin` the block larhs cux no tcher in class make use of it lorhs =p


thens got some stupid assembly.
talks by 4 pple. nearly died larhs. starvin`.
mrs tan is right larhs.
reflection is important.
i hate to say but she makes sense barhhs.
then wentt for recess
ate a lot
today stomach siao diao. like got a dozen holes cannot fill.
oorh went class stone somemore
thenn went to eat somemore
and get muhh lockerrrr ((:

finally.

beside jasmine ahmak renying ser they all. consecutive. lalala.

but i cmi. keep tryin` the combi then carn open the padlock

but now finally cann le. ((:*

thens wentas hall for swim shadies performance

they are a band made up of the national swimmers of spore.

selling cds for a good clause, raisin` money for CARE some charity organisation.

lays was touched by their sincerity and also wann pay for andersonians un-enthusiasm.

so bought their cd with tata. hehs.

[qiao n company damn on larhs only they standin` when the pple wan us to stand, mak was sayin` if kuays togets surely will stand de. muhh sentiments exactly. haha]]

but the cd they all write jasmine name cux they dono me or smth larhs *shrugs.

then me renying escaped and go "tuition" and went orchard and looked at ah-jos pressie.

mak xin n ser suai diao jo liao then go meet us.

but me n ying miss stop end up @ somerset. grr.

then went heeren saw this nice mini wallet i lurv loads.

but carn even fit a $2 note in lorhs

will stick out larhs. ><>

thens we got jo pressie.
ta met us aft her sjab duty.
rawks larhs.
then we planned smth for jojo and went home lorhs

yeahh we pon tuition agains.
thot its gona be an old borin` day but turned out kool ^^
tml got guides thoughs.
no skuu.
reflection dayy.
wahaha anyone jealous? kiddin`larhhs. hehs.
thenns go celeb with jo her bd marhs.
andd saturday- muggin` with the sec4s, shepherdin` and service.
sunday got tuition.
i wan lei si le. lols.


yakun rawks.

sec three [training] camp

the camp wasnt fun lorhs.
seriously.
its like a training campp.
to thynk jasmine wan go see wad a leisure camp reeli is. lols.
hmm. first day the 34`05 bus driver keep drivin` wrong ways and we were one of the last classes to arrived and kena booed and dono wad tokin` theyy.

suibian larhs.
they jiu go bring bags to the bunkks.
filled with insects.
oorh wells they were here before we invade their territoryy.
then icebreakin` after the class was split into 2
think we did the general stations.
damn fun. those teambuliding larhs.
need to get the whole group across a wall
and get the whole group across by swingin` and squeezin` into a small little concrete platform.
then off to the high elements
the humji lays tried the one where u climbed across this cargo net vehh high up larhs
cux that one u don need look down just look straight and look at the net oso unlike the others where u walkk on the one iron string or smth
i climb up then the belayin` rope got stuck behind the wooden plank im suppose to step to start muhh way across so have to move it awayy
thenn across the net hands no strength lorhs.
thenn hang there. lols. finally made it across and downn.
thynk is sheryl encouragin` me. too blur to know whos cheerin`. lols.

then lunch.
gobbled down and finished the food quickly.
then we went wash the dishes. suck larh.

then it was rock climbin`.
i didnt get to try larhs.
tried @ sparkc in p5 or p6 le anyways. was less scary then
cux i was stupid.
thenn i was sufferin` from cying panggs.
as in like wann cry.
sort of like tears fill up then keep blinkin` away
tammy and weiching xia dao barhs.
actually its just plainly i carn adapt larhs.
was vehh dependent on kuays marhs.
as in, they are always there.
and the camp is like they are doin` everythg u re doin` but so far away or so.
and feel so outnumbered by pple.
and used to 23`04 pple's niceness le larhs.
thens went toilet break
dear weiching fell down into the drain then got injuredd =(
then quite severe lehhs like got puncture wound liddat.
then she still keep laughin` then bring her backk to the canteen
and shouted first aid.
tio dao ><
the instructorr just simply use hose and spray at her wound then put plaster. end.
then she was okie le larhs. lols.
but after the song session i got much better le nehh wann cry le
guidesss.
rawkin`.
then had night hike. we waited forever for our threepple walkk larhs. wadever happened to the so-called solo walk.
then me n audrey helped weiching along lorhs.
her wound started to bleed
thens we went to gatherr at the dariy farm quarry there.
so wowww.
then went back and ms sek helped weiching with the first aid and we, blessin` in disguise got to shower in the vehh nice toilet with nice heaterr @ the office theree.
so no need queue oso.
cux she need to wash up before can dress the wound.
then i went get her bun for supper and came back and saw husna there.
she got gasticss.
awww. unfortunate. then got siti to get her her luggage
wahh. keep running to aand fro the first aid room and bunks.
then jiu lightsout.
then five am or so.
think layjia or prisilla or someone screamed larhs cux got frog
then everyone woke up larhs.
then i don reeli know wad happened cux i just turned and went back to sleep.
hah thot its wake up scream.
5 plus they on lights liao me n ching slept till 630 and went to washh up.
her wound hurt vehh severly durin` wash up so we went to ms sek and mr yeo and they say need bring her to doctor in case the bone chipp off or smth
so i went for the morning stretches.
was lonely larhs.
cux tammy with caroline then audrey looking at soome pple larhs.
hmmm. but after the nature walk feel so energised.
its a freakin` four hours thoughs and they don allow weiching to go.
thankk God she nehh go oso. vehh dangerous considerin` shes limpin`
when walkin` out of the campsite saw some pple look like japanese exchange prog pple.
the guys got sei hair.
woots.
hmm. thru the nature walk actually know the significance of the little flowers among the grasses i never knew existed.
they are so not noticeable but they strive for survival and strive to grow.
hmm.
then i was being nice larhs =p
i seriously aint not interested in the names of flowers and plants cux i obviously ccarn rmb them
but see our nature guide devote all her youth and all her passion towards plants
i paid attentio act enthu abit and smile at herr larhs. lols.
the difference between an ape and a monkey is that a monkey has a tail and an ape doesnt winkks *
saw 35`05 they all. renying gimme drink cux i no more waterr le. thankkss ^^
and this kool birdie with nice "badminton rackets" thingy for her tail [yarhh. i forgot the name]] 3 different breeds of squirrels, monitor lizard and loads or long tail macaquee.
i lurvv squirrels.
they sho superr cute.
and saw one baby monkey hugging to the mama! raree ^^
the hike was okie larhs.
tiring at times but i was hummin` worship songs lols.
thynk vehh enjoyable lehs. ><
vehh carefree de feelin` marhs.
and some kool expensive fungi [i kg iK?]] i forgot the name ><>
oorh we went to the dairyfarm quarry oso. totally different from night. magnificent.
lunch was pukish.
hehs then thynk we went play the rope?
the skippin` rope thg
17 pple managed to jump thrice togets consecutively
nort bad marhhs. hehs.
then we went absailin`
hehs. it was scary ><
i was the last lucky? ger to try it.
did before in pri sku without wall one
was totally okie with it cux wasnt scared tHEN.
but muhh instructor damnnnn nice.
i was like "i scared, i dowannn" during the lowerin` part larhs.
then he still vehh consolin` not like the other guy.
hehs. then went cf prep.
sianns.
dinner was rushed. didnt feel like eatin`.
all meals done there vehh rushed larhs.
campfire wasnt reeli high and the items were all so-so.
but me maryam n weiching high. guides marhs. blehh. =p
thens mrs tan and the tchers danc3d worhhs. kool~~ ((:*
my n ching went showerr larhs.
this time went to queue for cold slow waterr.
thenns went back packed awhile and went to get supper- currypuff and leftoverr watermelonn.
and sleepp.
didnt include much unhappiness between grps larhs. =hmm this morn still reeli tiredd.
but just clean up and do survey form jiu go home le.
3/8 3/9 3/5 got prizes i thynk.
happily get back muhh phone on the bus got 12 missed calls- bro sis n mama
they thynk i kena wash away by tsunami or smth cux i nehh call home cux they confiscate our phones marhhs.

reach skuu finally and met qiao at the flagpole.
they've been doing cip recently hhaven touch syllabus yet. miss her n ber loads ^^
then went loiter n tok with ying mak n jo ser they all while waitin` or the 37`05 pple stuck cux the bus late.
got the lockerr formm.
went tour the temp block againns.
and makanin` oppo while shooin` jiong guang to makan fasterr so we can sit @ the table.
miss the gr8 old dayys.
now gone then learn to appreciate it loadds. haha.
kuays will stayy ^^
ate and took bus to j8 for neoprints.
vehhh soon aft the neo i need leave for caregrp le
jo go with mak to cut hair.
ta with xin to remove her stitches
and ying n me took 853 to serangoon
i figured out whr the place is aft a while larhs. hehs.
saw pple walkin` there marhs.
rachel life story and kats song was inspirin`
and didnt know aaron cud play guitarr. ^^
hehs. ma called she expects me home early. total attitude change from when i called her aft camp larhs.
and qiao pei me go yishun since she need settle her dinner outside.
and she was testin` her bladder and the 853 was retarded larhs
we went yoshi but i makaned yakun. [renying, ur idol nehhs!]]
jiu have to go le lorhs.
both went home.
thankewws qiao for pei-in me to yishunn.
yeahhs. lalala.

twothree` orhfour miss u guys loads.
threefour` orh five must learn to unite togets lehhs.

hmm.

campp.

ooh
i finally reeeeli absorb that its gona be camp tml
okie. i duno. prolly gona hang with weiching lorhs.
and nas etc.

actually this is an useless pc of entry.
for me to like blog before sku starts and i don get to. blehh.

tml shall go sku n tourr the temp block
shall go to every class. lols.
i think i know where the 3/4 classrm is.
lols.
*shrugs.
muhh brother in law's nephew tml sec 1.
must be scary too.
i feel sec 1.
blehh.
im too caught up in being humji about camp to be excited bout the new batch of juniors.
was vehh excited last yearr.
im agin`. lols.

hmm. just hope the camp will be fun.
hehs. at least its leisure campp.
but training campp can be fun too larhs.
argh. i shud stop over-thinkin`.

see everyone in sku tml!~
23`04 u guys rawkk
jiayou and don be so narrow-minded worhs.
34`05 will rawk. yes.
it will.

thankyou for ur time to read this pc of self reassurin` entry.
im gg peanuts.
*pinches nose, sticks out tougue ad run ard the house.

to ber: will miss u. take caree.
to kuays: u better not abandon me if u find nicerr pple. [if thats possible]] haha jkg jkg. =X

A POEM OF HOPE
Composed by a young girl in Belarus, Russia, near the site of the Chernobyl Nuclear Disaster Area.
One song can spark a moment,
One flower can wake the dream.
One tree can start a forest,
One bird can herald spring.
One smile begins a friendship,
One handclasp lifts a soul
.One star can guide a ship at sea,
One word can frame the goal.
One vote can change a nation,
One sunbeam lights a room,
One candle wipes out darkness,
One laugh will conquer gloom.
One step must start each journey,
One word must start each prayer.
One hope will raise our spirits,
One touch can show you care.
One voice can speak with wisdom,
One heart can know what's true.
One life can make the difference.
You see, it's up to YOU!

nice poem ((:*
stolen from yixins blog though she disabled right click. lols.
thanks yixin! ((: i self-service. hehs.

newyearr.

muhh* new year resolutions.
[1]` keep muhh faith strong and bring pple to Christ and live by Him.
[2]`never procrastinate homeworkk and revisionn and finish everythg on that day itself ^^
[3]`save money for mp3 digicam guitarr lego etc. just SAVE.
[4]`get top five in muhh class and glorify Him thru my studies.
[5]` stop over-worryin`about wad pple thinkk of me and follow muhh dreamms.
[6]`control emotions more effectively not get too involved in peoples woes
[7]`have faith in muhself like others have in me.
[8]`get the 24 proficiency badges.

guess wad?

its 2005!
fine.. laggin`
shall blogg bout these 2 days.

yesterday went werk.
*fastforwards*
thenn me n cixin go tata [jAsS'] house to sleepoverr and kountdown marhs.
we went thomson plaza makann kfc.
cixin fell @ the iceskatin` rink cux she overspeed.
thankk God i not there cux got a lot a lot a lot of blood.
i think im exeggeratin`
anyway take care, gal ^^
thens we bought some stuff @ ntuc with our teeth chatterin` cux vehh cold
jiu go herr house liaos.
and thenns we ate the choc
lie on bed and tok
and apparently miss twelve oclock
how intelligent so point-less. lols.
but we still like "5-4-3-2-1, HaPpY nEw yEar!"
thenns we went out and watched a cinderella story.
oorh greats. im started on chad michael murray again. i duno hes called "chad", "michael" or "murray".
but hes cute. fullstopp.
and reminds us of someone. hmm.

then we went the playgrd. romantic marhs.
in the end all 3 humji.
cux vehh vehh darkk.
then wann go down and go back to the house and i follow cixin and not the dear firstaiderr who climbed down the stairs thingy
and slide down the slide with a lot a lot of waterpuddles huggin my blue pen n sermon notebook and *thuddd* got scratches.
then the dear firstaider treatedd me.
but this casuatly cmi.
keep gigglin` cux vehh itchy
thenn waste her gauze. paisehh ><>plasterr. lols.
thenn we jiu lie ard n tok someomore thenn jiu sleep le.
not vehh excitin` but nice all the same..
then next morn need wake up at 0745 or smth cux wana go arcade @ ps
then we all oversleep -wake up then go bac sleep.
end up 0920 or smth then woke up
thenns change went thomson plaza for bk breakfast
duno why i no appetite.
hmm. lactose.
thenn took bus cux ta meetin` nc5 n i meetin` qiao.
xin vehh nice gave us her umbrella cux our busstop across the street and she loiterin` in thomson plaze first.
thankks ^^
and i dono how hold umbrella so we 2 abit wet ><
then the stupid bus don like me.
i miss the busstop liao then still dowan stop and went further on
end up i walk all the way back to somerset mrt
thank god got umbrella
qiao was late. for once.
thenn we excitedly went to take neo
twice.
thenn went for pm and service.
today service i was quite hyperr.
we prayed and donated for the tsunami victims too.
lols. then qiao a bit blind larhs. lalalalalaa. don ask why.
thenn my phone rang during service
bleh and its the "ringring, ringring" ringtone.
paisehh ><
its muhh ma i realise.
uhoh.

then jiu went eat icekachang with qiao who keep thinking of chicken rice
and then we went off.
then i met `ta @ bugis.
i oso dono why.
thenn we walk ard and then muhh sis sms and say muhh ma pissed i so late nort home then we makan out waffle and her milk tea [lactose eeewww]]
walk ard she bought her pencil case [duhh] then we went muhh house cux she desp for comp and update.

thenn my whole family at home.
grandma, parents, 2sis + 2broinlaws, bro, nephew.
ta lurv muhh nephew.
lols. still wan call him "nitrate" =(
hes called keven btw
7 months old ^^

then muhh parents forced ta to eat sho we ate and she went update then i showerr and slack ard.
thenn played ddr.
she just left. hehs.

thanks `ta for ya house ^^ its funn. lols. and your tidbits! thankks! ((:

lalala.
and if u read till here, it means u`re a gr8 fren!
hehs can help me kep by muhh resolutions and also tell me if theres anythg i can do to change for the betterr! *cheers.